Saturday, August 21, 2004

Musings of a "Kunnamkulam Christiani"

Kunnamkulam is a small town where both my parents were born and raised.

Kunnamkulam in vernacular means land with ponds and hills. This is really a misnomer as there are few hills in the area and not many ponds either. Over the years, it has gained a bad reputation as the 'duplicate capital' of the world. Fakes for goods ranging from Rolex watches to toilet soaps are readily available at most stores in 'Paara' or downtown Kunnamkulam. Most of the counterfeiting rackets have their base in this place. Due to the overwhelming presence of business minded Christian community, considered completely anathemicto culture and arts, this small town is a far cry from its near door big town of Thrissur, the place I call my hometown, known as the cultural capital of the state. Another reason for notoriety is the presence of several Z grade movie halls that screen X rated flicks.
I used to be ashamed to say that my roots lay in that town which represented nothing but greed and lust. Until last week. Until my mother told me that my uncle sold her ancestral home.
My mom's voice was breaking as I told her it was for the best as the house was unattended and slowly being infested by termites. She reminded me that it was where I took my first steps. My grandparents who were living in that house in 1977 took care of me for a few months when my mom was working in a different town. Last night, the storm and heavy rains that swept across New England caused power outages everywhere including the city I live in. As there was nothing I could do inside my room, I decided to take a stroll and the memories about my childhood came flooding to my mind.

I used to be at Kunnamkulam almost every weekend till I was like 10 years old. The main activity other than re-reading the pile of comics books was to hang out on the front porch with my cousins.All of us never missed the cheap thrill of mocking the fishmonger Johnny by imitating his calls - 'Aila, Chala, Avoli, pooooey!'. And when he would stare at us in mock anger, we would all flee indoors in unison. Late evening before the play on radio started, we would watch all the drunks totter up the street. The grown ups would also be there, discussing everything from politics to soccer games. On festivals, there would be elephants adorned with embellishment with the marching band playing popular songs. During the harvesting holidays, my grandpa would take us fishing, and we would walk back with the tiny fish that we caught like victorious warriors returning from a battle. During summer it was cashew picking time. We would always steal some seeds ignoring the pleas of the poor men who leased the orchard. The jamun tree in the church yard would turn the ground purple and you could spend the whole morning, picking the fallen fruit.

A mile or two from where my mom's house was, stood a colony where poor people from the lower castes lived. Kizhoor, as it was called was a communist bastion. During election times men with bulging muscles and chiseled bodies marching on our streets with flags with the sickle, hammer and star. Their chants still ring out in my ears
"Inquilab zindabad
Rakthasakshikal zindabad..."
Well, their efforts often went unsuccessful, as it used to be a certain seat for the Congress party. K. R. Narayanan won twice from this place.

Culture had its share here..The bard of Kerala, Vallathol Narayana Menon, lived in Kunnamkulam for many years and composed many of his poems while strolling on its streets. In fact it wasMukunda Raja a local princely chieftain was his host and helped him with establishing Kalamandalam now considered the seat of Kathakali and other performance art forms of Kerala.
As I grew up, visits to Kunnamkulam became rarer. First, it was only for holidays, later it would come down to weddings or other unavoidable occasions. I fell in love with Thrissur more and more. Many people left the town and the almost every house on the street was occupied by old and lonely people waiting for death to arrive. It was more than 7 years ago that I last went to that place.

Next time I visit India, I'll have to go to Kunnamkulam. I hope to see the short hedges where flowers grew that were boundaries of yards haven't turned to tall stone and brick walls. If the new owners are friendly, I would ask permission to see the backyard, where my uncle created a miniature golf course for us kids that we played with pieces of coconut branches and ping-pong balls. If it hasn't turned into another concrete jungle, I would go visit the old 'Sarppakkavu' to where we kids would sneak into, hoping to see cobras mate.

To all the people who ask me why even after all these years in the U.S., I still call myself an Indian all I can say is you would probably understand if you had spend your childhood in Kunnamkulam.

17 Comments:

At August 25, 2004 at 4:42 AM, Blogger Anand said...

Less than fifty miles to the north of Kunnamkulam, I can picture myself in a very similar atmosphere, more or less around the same time (mid eighties).

Wish there are frequent power cuts in the New England area!

 
At November 26, 2005 at 11:46 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Aduppootty Perunal

Eve

The candle tongue flickers once , and the poothiri crackles and erupts into a million glittering stars. Beaming faces illuminated by the sparks of a thousand shapes and colors spring up here and there in the darkness of the October night .

Georgettan’s booming laugh , fireworks , the beats of chenda , thorthu thalakettu, a light chill running down my spine, ,chakrams with round tops of glittering yellow ,green, blue , orange , gold - these are some of the things that make up my childhood , splash colors on the fabrics of my entire life.

Morning

I wake up to the bursts of Padakkam and the heady scent of appam and stew ( that special dish underlying the festivity of breakfast ) .
I try to restructure the night before from patches that have filtered through the sieves of sleep. Groping in darkness for Chakram tops under the creepers and in the fissures where the mossy walls meet with the red earth . Trying to prolong the burnt out festival night , trying desperately to rekindle the spectacle of fireworks with the last stick of Mathappu . Trying to relive a lost dream .

I get up when the swish of Ammu’s broom gets unbearably close , shattering the thin wall between reality and illusion . That cloudless morning of an innocent childhood lingers in my mind even now, has permeated through this hot summer night.

Late morning

I am on my way to Aduppootty Palli with my younger brother Thampi , and ,at the end of what seemed to be a walk to the other end of the world ,I lose all my fortunes against a fake Parker pen. All my pocket money is blown away in that fateful game of mucheettu ( game of three cards ) and nothing is left for buying even ice fruits !

We walk past rows of merchants in the Palli yard who keep on beckoning us to the tempting heaps of aluva , karimpu & eathapazham covered with swarms of insects of all sizes and colors .


Lunch at home

Fish fry and curry, meat curry and kakku varattiyathu ( liver fry in a thick gravy )and a lot of other mouth watering dishes tenderly prepared by my beloved mother adorn the dining table. Through the lone glass tile in the roof a rectangle of sunlight falls on the large dented aluminum vessel containing boiled rice . An entire universe of tiny multicolored particles float down dancing along that slanted beam .

As I sit spellbound by the glory of creation unraveled in that single bundle of rays ,my mouth is half open and droplets of curry are falling from the urula of rice in my hand on to the edge of the dark wooden table .

Afternoon

The smell of burning sulfur fills up the afternoon.

The fake fountain pen has already made a large blue stain on the front pocket of my rose terylene shirt . My mother has seen that but prefers not to spoil my festive mood .

I am shuttling between the gate and the veranda of my house , and I can hear the distant beats of chenda from far away Kanipayyoor . The pockets of my shorts are full of balloons and a yellow plastic whistle . My fingers are covered with the white dust from the balloons.


Late afternoon

The sounds of the procession are getting closer and closer .

My heart is beating faster now ..

I, breathless , holding a half inflated pink balloon hanging at the end of a thin bamboo rod , open the gate and dash to the right , to the turning close to Dr.Mallan’s clinic . The tops of the decorated umbrellas ( vellikudagal ) of various colors appear on the horizon .

I run back home to proudly announce that the procession is just around the corner.

We are planning to go to Aduppooty hill to see the culmination of the Perunal , where more than thirty elephants line up in front of the church .

My mother suddenly decides to change my shirt . Fearing that I might miss a major part of the show, I try to release my head without unbuttoning the shirt and that creates confusion . A stinging slap on my right thigh just above the knee helps me regain composure.

Tears roll down uncontrollably burning my cheeks and the festival lights fade away slowly .

Evening

Elephants with freckles on their temples and ears are looking exhausted . Drunk mahouts are poking them with poles with sharp hooks to force them lift their heads higher . The winner , Guruvayoor Kesavan , who has spent most of his life tethered to a large banyan tree in the temple grounds , gets a large Pazhakkula as reward .

A veil of sadness engulfs me along with the rays of the setting sun as I realize that the festival is over and a monotonous Monday awaits me at school .

Night

Amma throws her arms around me and drags me to her bosom.
Refrains of a lullaby rise from the depths of her chest between sobs ,like the breeze circling the banana grove in the back yard . It is streaked with the perfume of Elakkaya and Kariampoo she munches after a meal . My eyes close. I fall into a deep slumber as she gently caresses my head , and I see a dream.

I am running barefoot on a meadow between rows of smiling elephants with big brown eyes. They are waving their trunks holding sparklers , glowing little stars cascading all around .

The color of grass beneath my feet is crimson .

 
At February 13, 2006 at 6:07 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

call me sasi,
I am from about 8 km away from Kunnamkulam. Kottappady. But kunnamkulam is realy an inspiration for me. I have started my first career at kunnamkulam. Studied in IET Of prof.Ram Raja.
Dont be ashamed of being a kunnamkulathukaran. I have hosted a web site about kunnamkulam, kunnamkulam.com.Kunnamkulam is really a very good place. Once it was the Business Capital of Kerala. Years Back Persions Egyptions used to trade in kunnamkulam.The archeologists Unearthed a collection of Old Roman Coins Which was buried around BC 123 and AD 117 from the nearby places of kunnamkulam.
The native traditional business people of kunnamkulam are very hard working and they made duplicate products with utmost skill.

 
At March 7, 2006 at 12:01 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i am proud of kunnamkulam. iwas born and brought up there, near Senior ground. i used to enjoy all palli perunnals and poorams due to the live band playing popular film songs and chenda melam and thayampaka. during onam, kunnamkulam may be the only place under sun where the native peole enjoyed after stimulated by "kallu" the onathallu(bare hands fighting)after the time of historic colossium. we are that stuff, paying to enjoy people fighting for their survival.
preacherdewas@sancharnet.in

 
At April 7, 2006 at 9:33 AM, Blogger Vipin said...

I am also from KKM, but settled in Bangalore... for the last 11 years... I must say it's hard to find another place like KKM.... it's truly unique... this blog and teh comments brought back a lot of fond memories... I keep visiting KKM at least once in 2 months.Keep up the good work!

Cheers!/Vipin.

 
At May 13, 2006 at 5:40 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Iam from Kunnamkulam, I dont know or heard of u. Can u tell who u r?.

 
At June 3, 2006 at 1:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

On the turning away

Somewhere on Maroseika street in the center of Moscow , some time in the noon on a day in the fall , I was in the back seat of a metallic green car with a yellow number plate . My mind was filled with a variety of thoughts – thoughts like eddies of smoke , rising slowly above the daily grind of flat colorless mental frames . They were embracing each other and then falling apart in the next instant .

I was in a business meeting in Nizhny Novgorod , was lying awake in a Scandic hotel in a little Danish town gazing at patterns of light playing on the ceiling , looking into the depths of a small pond covered with green moss back in Kerala , when the car screeched to a halt before the signals ………

Then it happened .

I saw her eyes in the crowd , dark eyes with the deepest shade of sorrow in them – eyes which spoke of pain , injustice and humiliation .

Those eyes have changed my life .

I will never be the same again .

I have no right for celebrations .

Somewhere in Connaught place , I am in a taxi doing a shopping round before returning to the distant cold expanses of Russia . I see that old woman in a torn gray sari squatting on the pavement with a heap of newspapers in front of her . Her face fades away and takes the contours of my mother’s face . I am already out of the car , walking towards her , now kneeling in front of her . I leave her, tears swelling up in my eyes, and she is looking into her palms ,at one thousand rupees, for a copy of a shady newspaper named “ midnight “ or “ midday “ .

I have experienced a strange dimension of feeling , something I want to hold on to forever , but sadly fated to slip away from my grip as the cab merges into the orange glow alighting on Delhi at sunset .

The train is speeding through the valleys and forests of Chambal region . I am in a crowded compartment amidst strangers and friends in unfamiliar attires. An old man with a thousand wrinkles on his face watches me intently . An earthen jar with water is placed near his feet . The edges of his moustache are streaked with betel stains .The train pulls itself on to a deserted station in the middle of nowhere .In the heat and
dust , in a far away corner of the platform , a family is sharing a stale piece of chappathi placed atop a bundle , their only possession . Sad faces look up at me as I place a blanket and a pillow ,my father had instructed me to hand over to my uncle in Delhi, close to that bundle .

As I watch them from the windows of the departing train , a feeling of sheer happiness encompasses me. The old man offers me cold water from his jar with a smile .

God , why am I writing all this ? Why this cry from the very depths of my being ?

I am no angel . These were maybe the only times when I have come so close to touching another soul . These were the moments I wanted to cherish all my life , moments I wanted to keep close to my heart .

"No more turning away
From the pale and downtrodden
And the words they say
Which we won’t understand
‘ Don’t accept that what’s happening
is just a case of others’ suffering
or you’ll find that you’re joining in
the turning away ‘"

Pink Floyd ( Album – A momentary Lapse of Reason , track-five )

But , sadly , today I am one of those , who brush their teeth with closed eyes , listening to the radio bubbling with the morning news .I am one of those who turn away from another human-being lying half dead on the street .

I am safely entrenched in my cocoon !

 
At October 4, 2006 at 12:16 PM, Blogger SO BE IT said...

What can I say about Kunnamkulam? What would anyone say about the place that you grew up? There is no where so special and close to your heart as your home town.

Kunnamkulam was (hope it still is) a town of simple folk - simple not stupid. Their simplicity was to keep life least complicted. Straight talk , no political correctness. Honest not sauve. Growing up in Kunnamkulam in the seventies was a very fulfilling experience. You matured quite fast as you saw things as it had to be seen - straight on its face and not with veils. The biggest knowledge is in knowing that you know only what you know. This makes ones life straight and smooth. Wonder why you get philosophical when you think of all those years. This blog is not for any intellectual stimulation , this is only a record of the exitement that we all shared while growing up in Kunnamkulam and to immortalise those colorful characters that we all would have come across. It's Arundhati Roy's misfortune that she was not born in Kunnamkulam, else her portrayals of our own Thandmmedathi and Papachettan or Cheru or Chiriyaku would have propelled her to Oscar. Anyway this lets lesser mortals like us to salivate on our fondest memories.

 
At February 1, 2007 at 6:33 PM, Blogger peter ivan said...

Good one sijotten...
do mail me if u check this blog...
peterivant@gmail.com

 
At September 6, 2007 at 4:28 PM, Blogger Diana said...

Ah...this is a lovely blog and true credit to Kunnamkulam. I have learned more of my adopted home here than most anywhere else.

I am an American who only found Kunnamkulam this past year. There I have made good friends and have fulfilled my dream of opening an inclusive little preschool for little kunnamkulathukaran (learned that word here) children who have disabilities.

I now know some wonderful families and children and it has been heart warming to read the memories of those of you posting here.

Somehow, images like this one tend to stay with me, "The fake fountain pen has already made a large blue stain on the front pocket of my rose terylene shirt . My mother has seen that but prefers not to spoil my festive mood ." The layers of understanding and truth hiding there is impressive and very fitting of the small town I'm learning to know.

 
At September 18, 2007 at 12:05 PM, Blogger mowcopbang said...

Snowflakes on palm leaves

Defying all laws of nature, snow started to fall in Stolbishi in the beginning of May, when the rich black soil, full with Podsneshniki, was writhing in prenatal convulsions. Those little violet flowers were patiently waiting to be born all through winter just to look at the crisp blue sky spread over the green hills, to be caressed by the wings of butterflies while swaying slowly to the rhythm of the breeze and to die, a lifetime later, when thunders shook the earth and May’s downpours washed away the remnants of snow into the springs surrounding the village.

I woke up abruptly in the middle of the night. My heart was laden with sorrow for no apparent reason. I sat there on the edge of my bed for hours together ,until , in the early morning ,sunrays slithered down the windowsill like golden snakes. Then I decided to pack my belongings and head for the big city because I heard him whisper my name over the mountains and the seas.

The drive back was long and tiring. But for me it was just the beginning of a long trip down the memory lane stopping at places known only to me, absorbing the aromas of my childhood and listening to the melodies trickling down from the floor above.

Stars shone in the sky. I was wide awake staring at one lone star from a half closed window miles above earth on my way back home. Thoughts began to flood the abysses of my mind …..

I cuddled to his lap, feeling snug and cosy, enveloped by “dadsmell” , a combination of Dettol and Pears soap . My nose was touching the edge of the wooden table as I was desperately trying to peek into the comic strip deftly covered by his palm. It was Tarzan of the Apes, the lord of the jungle. He had a magical way of narration which could transfer us within moments to the distant shores of tropical lands, let us loose in the lush green jungles and bring us back when danger loomed ahead. The Indian Express editions were neatly stacked for many months in that small room under the creaking stairs.

I ran past the old moss covered well ,the mango trees and the Jack fruit trees in the backyards of Thekkekara house, occasionally stopping to listen to the songs of mynahs , thathas and a host of other birds (the names of which are erased out of my mind by an eternity of living in Russia ). Dry leaves crumbled under my feet as childhood blossomed into youth beneath the shades of the Jackfruit tree.

Lonely star was my witness. Floating above the clouds, I did not shed any tears though languor pierced my heart as if with a dagger. The dawn was about to break. We started to descend towards Mumbai….

Above the hum of engines, thought I heard the waves exploding on the salty shores of Arabian sea during monsoon , rain drops falling on the pebbles under the Poochavalan plant and the tapping of the branches against the windowpanes as he groped for a blanket to cover me ,fearing that I would catch cold .

I was almost home, just almost. I was happy to be near him but at the same time fear was creeping into me as I knew he will come to me, to tell me all about his life, to disclose untold stories of many different shades. I fell asleep with the lights on.

He was riding his bicycle on his way home from music classes at Erumapetty. The night was filled with the piercing scent of palappoovu , flowers which blossom during night . A little boy came running out of a hut bleeding profusely, his drunken stepfather at his heels with a hammer. My father saved the boy, I am told.

He was lying in the morgue wrapped in white cloth like an Egyptian mummy. Standing outside that cold chamber, I still could not shed a tear, for he was far away in an old house heaving a silk attire to and fro, to get rid of starch-stiffness .

He lay there elegantly in the middle of the drawing room not far from where the stuffed fox with marble eyes used to be. Relatives, close and distant, stood huddled in the narrow alley of Lakshmipuram 16th cross under a canopy of an unexplainable and deep silence, the highest tribute to a man who loved music with every particle of his being.

Then the priest said something about my dear father, about him trying to pay respect to the priest with folded hands as he (a gentleman to the hilt) ,on the verge of death ,was unable to speak, and with that the dams of emotions burst open inside me. I wept like a child right there, beside him, oblivious to the crowd, feeling my chin against his unshaven face as he rocked me all through night, when I was down with chickenpox.

I sat in the old black van holding a huge gold plated cross and a wreath of violet plastic flowers and we went on our last trip together here. Strangely enough, I did not feel so sad any more. For, in the innermost recesses of my heart, I knew that He was free at last and was sailing through layers of divine melodies on his way to meet God ……

 
At October 7, 2007 at 12:19 PM, Blogger SO BE IT said...

Earliest Memories:

Uppeettan and Mammedathi were part of my earliest memories, also their verandah with woodens rods for grills - I still remember boisterous and carefree boys in starched cotton shirts and khaki trousers going to Boys High school and boys and girls in blue and white unifoms with smart pink ties slow marching to the Bethany high school, their backs burdened with the trauma of studying in an english medium. Equally strong were the reflections of police vans and jeeps , the old vans with grills all around and gun holes - they looked ferocious with round eyes and square grills.The only give away was when the cops emerged , chicken legged wearing knee length khakis, domed capes and often rubber slippers.Even then I had this strong urge to get into school an become an IG,because I was told he got all the salutes even from the circle inspector who had redshot eyes and a komban meesa and had a reputation of getting wayward drivers piss in their pants.

Coming back to Uppettan and Mamedathi, they were this elderly couple who were next door neighbours and filled in the role of my grandparents whom I hardly remember. Puttu and kadala in their house was something out of this world. Also part of my earliest memories were Kunjani valiamma - her features aztec , dressed in crisp mundu with njories(frills) and a chatta and a pair of golden earrings weighing down her pierced earlobes- she was sprightly.

 
At October 10, 2007 at 12:28 PM, Blogger SO BE IT said...

The scent of first rain on baked earth, of mud raising , the crispiness in the air : no Gucci or Givenchy has yet been able to capture it and I hope they never do. Some scents are for you to experience in your own way and so are some motions, how the earth moved the first time with Lèila:the flood that erupted was sweet surrender.

Rains were always part of my life. The gathering of dark clouds , normally from the south seemed to create an air of expectancy, a feeling of wanting to reach where you were going a little faster, you steps seem to gather speed and strides got longer, even with an umbrella you felt completely unprotected, you just had to reach were you were going before the rain reached. Have you ever outrun a rain, that's a feeling ..although just to reach your porch and stretch your hands out to catch the first drops....

 
At May 12, 2009 at 9:42 AM, Anonymous VIJAY said...

I ALSO FROM KUNNAMKULAM.ABOUT 2 KM FROM IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH VADAKANCHERYROAD. YOU CAN REACH VERY GOOD VILLAGE NAMED CHOWANOOR.THERE HAVE VERY OLD GRAVE,VERY GOOD LANDSCAPE NAMED NARIMADA HILL WHICH IS USING TO TAKE CINEMA SHOOTING.THERE ALSO HAVE KALLAZHI TEMPLE AND ST THOMAS CHURCH.FR UKKAN WHO HAS DEVOTED HIS LIFE TO MAKE CHARITY SABA HIS BODY ALSO BURIED IN THIS CHURH. I AM VIJAY MY EMAIL/vijaychowa@yahoo.com

 
At October 10, 2009 at 2:01 PM, Anonymous Johnny John said...

The first Municipality lost its christian unity and wonderful aristocratic look, the traditional cultural ways wiped out from that corner of the world. no one wants to know who they are, traditions family connection. Perhaps it is a universal bloating phenomena the western and Gulf Internet culture,
we hope future generation will revive the Nazarene culture the golden forgotten traditions will revive We hope .... I love Kunnamkulam. more to come from Johnny John

 
At April 21, 2010 at 7:37 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

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At November 24, 2010 at 8:05 AM, Anonymous jose verghese said...

after a big gap again i happened to muse. wonderful the comments from all the dear ones. my memories of my beloved native town kills me each time i think of that place. i wonder how my locality. the foothills of adupputty kunnu, senior ground because my last visit was in 2005.
"gone are days where the tiny rubber ball rolled rolled and we all ran after it on one side of the ground where men sat for smoking and chat after their work, women return from the market some carrying small long shopping basket or cloth bags, oh! those evenings before dark we bleed almost all the days hitting the small protruded stones instead of the small ball...."

 

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